It Will

As the first month in 2009 comes to an end I am feeling very reflective. I don't know why. Well, maybe I do.

Nothing (at the moment) seems to be happening the way I thought it would. But I will continue to keep my head up. No need in feeling sorry for myself.

I must have faith that everything will work out the way it is supposed to.

It will.

~The Young Lady

Hannah Montana Freak

Can't wait for this to come out!

Mind Games

Its coming so fast and they tell me not to worry
How can I not worry when pain is coming at me in a hurry
Rushing through time
It wants to be mine
I dodge the shot
I beat the clock
What idea is this?
If only it would miss
its coming so fast and they tell me not to worry
How can I not worry when pain is coming at me in a hurry
watch out for the slap
watch out for the fall
more dangerous than the cliff
the biggest killer of them all
My mind keeps on running
its telling me to go
and run away
But. I. Will. Stay.

~The Young Lady

Wish you well

Thoughts are racing...heart is pacing.
I pretend not to hear you...
Don't tell me what I don't want to hear
Don't show me what I don't want to see
Heaven sent, I thought it was...
but maybe just not meant to be
Who knows what the future holds...
only time will tell
But whatever may come, near or far...
please know I wish you well


~The Young Lady

CRAP X 2

UGHHH!!! I broke my OWN rules AGAIN. CRAP!


Gotta start making better decisions young lady.


~The Young Lady

I Fell in LOVE

Is it possible to fall in love with a couple? Well I have. Multiple times. And again when I saw this tonight.

Proud to be an American

Today is one of the best days of my life. I was not in DC but that's ok.....ive spent summers and plenty of time in that city (and I'm from MD so I've had my share of dc). I am just proud to be an American. I am honored to be in this country. I am honored to be alive to have this man be MY president.

The swearing in....the parade....the balls. THAT DANCE. Barack and Michelle's first dance as the President and First Lady was a dream to watch. As beyonce sang...just feet from the first couple I was filled with emotion....filled with encouragement.

This has been one of the best days of my life. I spent it with good friends and I watched a miracle occur. I am so proud of my country. I am so proud of my country. This is beyond inspiration....this is hope.

~The Young Lady

What it really means

This moment is not just for me, this moment is for the enslaved woman in the 17th centry America. She lay there on her back staring at the stars. Its cold and wet outside but she rather lay outside on the soft soil than the hard wood of the shack where the others are. As she stares at that sky she wonders about her son and whether he is ok. She wonders where he is. She wonders if he is alive. She wonders if he is thinking of her. The enslaved woman longs for her husband who was ripped from her arms a few weeks before. Who was he sold to? Is he dead? All the woman can do it wonder. All she can do is pray. So she prays. She prayed to God, "God please keep my family, my son and my dear husband. Their skin is black and their hearts are strong. Please keep them. One day God, my child won't have to be afraid. My son will walk free. My husband will walk with his head facing the sky. Please God keep my people. The master and his family will one day bow down to my people on THIS soil. Amen" She prayed that prayer for you and me.

This moment. January 20th, 2009 is for that woman. I am experiencing this for her. I will never forget that. I can never take that for granted. I, myself, was not there for the struggle. But I can sit here today and say I am proud to be an African American woman. I am proud of my heritage and the strength that my anscestors had. My blood is rich and full of life because of those who sacrificed and died. I was not there for the struggle but the electricity of joy, excitement and pride shoot through my body just the same. They are with me, the people who came before me are here with me and living through me. They too are smiling today. They too are rejoicing for this marvelous occassion. The United States of America now has a Black President. I love my brown skin and I love this country. Thank you God for Barack Obama.

~The Young Lady

Letting Go

Letting go is a decision that you must make. Between you and God it's a give and take. Its your choice to make peace with destiny and fate. Its up to God.... for in his hand he takes you and your faith... Small as a seed....small as a grain of sand.....Precious little understanding on our eternal needs beyond this land. We hold this ignorance and we carry this hope. The goal is to let go on a good and blessed note. Letting go is a decsion that you must make. Between you and God its a give and take. Ultimately the help comes from above. Your little efforts are overshadowed by his mercy and love. Please let it go and this you cannot fake. Because from you...your blessings he can and will take.

~The Young Lady

The Obama Express

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE OBAMA: My first Lady :-) A strong black woman and a great mother and wife.



I've been GLUED to CNN ALLLL day long and I probably will be all day. Wolf, Anderson, Soledad, Josh, Roland...have been outside all day lol...and I've been right there with them. I'm a CNN freak.

I wish I was home right now...Baltimore...DC....Maryland in general. Obama has been on the 'Obama Express' all day. He started in Philly...Wilmington...then BALTIMORE and finally DC. Growing up so close to DC its weird seeing everyone around the country migrating to the city...especially since its in the teens in Maryland. Baltimore, Maryland is my home and as I watch the crowd there in Baltimore waiting for Obama to pull up on his train I soooo wish i was there. BUT im here in Atl at school. I'm too broke to go bacl home for the Inauguration. SO for now i shall sit here and watch Wolf...Anderson...Josh....Soledad...and Roland.

~The Young Lady

To You From Me

I don't know how to express what I'm trying to say. Is it accepted, is it ok? If I express this will there be away? Is this wrong or is this right? I won't let it go without a fight. But I will because its on my chest. I must say... once I speak it you might just walk away. Return my texts? Is what you won't do. Answer the phone when I call? I doubt that too. Speaking the truth doesn't always bring happiness. Speaking the truth can often bring you lonely-ness. I am brave enough to say it. I am brave enough to face it. I figure I'd say this while you still have breath. Who knows how long we have here, who knows how much time we have left? So brace yourself for impact...make sure your seatbelt in secure and intact. Because the truth is that.....I like you a lot and I hope you like me back.

~The Young Lady

Goodbye to Writer's Block

A new but good friend has inspired me to write poetry again. I used to write in high school but recently I've been re-inspired to write. I thank him for that.



You speak blasphamy and then you ask me to cut you some slack. But in spite of yourself you continue talking smack. My mental overcomes the sentimental. My intuition creates and enables destiny to come into fruition. If I have ever confused abused or misused you in anyway please forgive me and my dismay. You speak but I don't hear you and you talk to the wall. I must never know everything because the weight of it will make my world fall. You speak blasphamy an you ask me to cut you some slack. Please stop and just take it all back.

~The Young Lady

Another Boondocks Moment

Boondocks

Jamie Foxx at his best

Blah. But I'll be ok

Even I go against my rules sometimes. CRAP.

~The Young Lady

It Really Makes You Think

Its funny how we were born at this time in American history. Amazingly Blessed is what we are to experience this. Just think about everything that these pictures express.

Prop 8?

Commercials that made me giggle

KP

KP is a young man who may be the most-cute-best-handsom looking guy I have ever known personally. We met in kindegarten....and I've pretty much know him my whole life. As he says..."its a whole lot of history." ANYWAYS....he friended me on facebook the other day and he's still as beautiful as ever. I remember going over his house and playing video games...I remember in first grade when he was my "boyyyyy friend" ewwww COODIES. O yea and when he ended up liking my ex best friend. He even asked me to give her the note. I remember sitting next to him in the sixth grade and just staring at him lol...but he was always just my friend. AND when we got to high school and every girl wanted him...i mean they wanted him before but now he was a football player....and I guess my friendship wasnt as important. But from kindegarten to 12th grade...i had one pure crush and it was KP...as he liked every girl but me. REALLY....my point is that its funny how life works out. I obsessed over this boy all of my life and one day out of the blue he friends me on FB and I just smiled. Its funny how stuff like that happens. Im pretty sure its called growing up...but I like to think it all meant something. KP will always have a special place in my heart and he doesnt even know it.....but we'll always have "a whole lot of history."

Pretty Good Day

I went Ice Skating today with my friend from school and my sister. It was a lot of fun and I did not fall at all. I wanted to have hot chocolate but I opted out of that choice. Instead...we decided to go to TGI Fridays. I enjoyed my night because it was fun but more so because it reflects the type of person I am. I enjoy doing things like that and I have been wanting to Ice Skate for a while. I think I will put an ice rink in my backyard when I'm grown and have my own house.

When I get back to school this weekend I am going straight to my mail box. I am no longer afraid as to what I am going to find. God has the wheel...and not me. SOOO I am looking forward to opening that mail box...yes i am.

A friend from high school who I am also in college with told me that I was a nerd in high school LOLOL. She went onto say that I was cool and not dork nerdy...just smart nerdy and everyone liked me. I guess thats a nice thing to know. haha.

Me...Married?

I did what i said i would't.

This chapter in my life is called: blah.

I've enjoyed this break and hated this break all at the same time. I've made and lost friends (Made and lost = same friend). I've gotten closer to my sister. We've hung out a lot and found out that we are similar and very different...yet raised by the same people...we're just from two different eras.

This is my last week at home until I graduate. Next week im riding back home with Best Friend. We are actually starting to be 'just' friends....and I pray to God I can handle all that comes with that.

I was telling the friend that I made and lost that I have been wanting to do a lot of things that brought me comfort as a child...and I was also telling this friend/ex friend that I don't like dating and talking to guys. i enjoy the stability of a relationship. This friend, being the very insightful person that he is suggested that I want to get married hence my need for stabiliy and comfort...

I dunno. Who Knows? Not me.

~The Young Lady

Sexiest Men (I'm Bored)

WILL DEMPS

He is # 1 because he just is. AND he played for my home town team: BMORE Ravens! He's a better model than football player...but oh well. He's my #1 pick. He was in the Latoya Luckett Video......yea the one she had. Anyways...I met him once and freaked out. It wasn't a good look for me...but hey! There's always the memories. Will...just keep being hot ;-)

T.I.

This young man is SWAGGER.

MICHAEL EALY

This is the guy from Barbershop and YES my new fav Beyonce video...he used to date Hallie Barry. But Most of all he has the most beautiful Green eyes and he is JUST beautiful. Love it.

My Dillema in Words and Thought

My words have left me lonely and my thoughts leave me haunted. If only my words and thoughts brought me what I wanted.

If my words could walk would they walk lightly as to not to hurt your ears? If my words could run maybe they would tred quickly across my tongue and not linger in the air. If my words could jump they would exit my mouth without fumble. They would land softly on your mind politely and humble.

If my thoughts could walk they would saunter along my shoulders...whisper in my ears and keep my joy quietly sober. If my thoughts could run maybe they would go in circles...as the memories of happiness run over and over. If my thoughts could jump they wouldn't cause me pain...they would know when to exit and land...even in the rain. But the truth is still the same....my words have left me lonely and my thoughts have left me harunted and much worse....they have brought me pain.

Where is there joy...peace...or happiness to gain?


~The Young Lady

I am SOOO 2009

I graduate this year from college. Whenever I start stressing about what's going on at the moment...I will think to that day...May 17, 2009. All of the years...all of the homework...papers...presentations...research...guys....parties...movie nights...organizations.... comes down to that one day. The day I graduate is definitley something I am looking forward to.

~The Young Lady