Intentions are everything!!

As a woman the strategic and manipulaive tactics of John McCain picking a woman as his VP to gain support from Hillary Clinton supporters is offensive and quite honestly too late. Besides undermining the intelligence of the American people with a strategic move that would put the dirtiest chess player to shame, he is about 48 hours too late. After Hillary Clinton's magnificent speech on tuesday night and Bill's excellent and eloquent address on Wednesday I think Its safe to say that any Hillary supporter that wasn't feeling Obama before the Democratic convention has moved to Obama with an urgency of unity. With every interview after interview there is proof of this; hard core hillary supporters (I used to be one by the way) who decided that Its not about the person...rather, its about the cause: Well needed change.

John McCain...I'm dissapointed. NOT because you picked a woman..but for the REASON. A person's intentions mean an awful lot to me....and I think many American's feel the same way.

If Only

If only these words would draw you nearer instead of pushing you away....

The individual beats, rhythms, palpatations of each heart beat move my soul closer to you. I've been here before...this place full of worry, this place full of fear. So you tell me not to worry and you tell me to have faith but I still say I'm scared. I've been here before...so dark and unsure. I want you to say that you love me still. I dont want you to leave , I want you to stay. You don't stay, you leave, you just go far...far away.

RANDOM LEVEL: 7.5

I'm on my way back from NJ where I attended my cousins wedding. THAT will be discussed when I have time to actually sit downband type (cuz I can only type for but so long on this Palm lol).

My Point: RANDOM THOUGHT....ive alway thought Chris Brown looks like the child of Beyonce and Jay-Z.

THE VIDEO SPEAKS FOR ITSELF HAHAHA

I OBJECT, I DO!

I've been in court all morning with the Judge I intern for. Its always cool going to court with her because I sit up on the bench with her. Sitting behind her I can see the full view of the courtroom and it always ignites my imagination. As she sends people away for years in jail or releases them with a lengthy probation/drug treatment evaluation, I can't help but wonder how those people got into the situation in the first place. BUT then i push those thoughts out of mind. If I want to be a lawyer I have to become a little less compassionate (which is sad because I belive my compassion is what sets me apart from the crowd). OR maybe I can just direct my compassion is a different way. What do you think?

Well today is my last day in the courthouse...and next week I head back to ATl with best friend, on tuesday. I love road trips...especially with him. BUT before that I have a wedding to go to. TOnight I'm headed to DC to get my hair did by my cousin's cross dressing hair dresser. This should be interesting to say the leat. I hope he's not one of those hair dressers that put grease in your hair. I HATE THAT lol. Anyways...then after that we are headed to Jersey to go to the wedding tomorrow evening. I LOVE weddings. I already have mine planned. I may share my ideas in a later post...But im afraid someone will copy cat me haha.

IM BAAACK

Ok just got back from court again....which is in the next room...so I didn't go far. Ok well u probably didnt even know i went anywhere.

ANNYYWAYS....where was I? O yea...wedding time. Oh and guess what? My ex (from wayyy back) is best friends with my cousin who is getting married. He is going to be in the wedding and I guess he realized he is about to see me...so he sends me this random as all get out message on Myspace...of all places trynna butter me up (what does he think ima go off on him at the wedding?). I couldn't care less about the guy but principle tells me that I MUST look good when an ex (who broke my heart years ago) sees me for the first time in years. Lets just say my outfit for tomorrow is BANGIN....

PLEASE LADY....I'M TRYNNA EAT

TO say I was a pig at lunch today would be an understatement. The law clerk treated me to lunch along with the Secrtary of another judge today at the Harbor. Guess where we wnet? 5 Guys! I love that place because u can see the grease coming through the bottom of the bag! O yea...im a fatty at heart (is that wrong to say?)

Sooo I ate a cheese burger with bacon...and the best fries in the world...gained about 5 pounds within the hour we sat there eating (Ok i was the only one eating for the whole hour..ima a slow eater).

MY POINT: We had a great lunch talking about guys and life and such...but there was one problem...a minor but noticable problem that is one of my HUGEST pet peeves...combined with one of the things I've already listed in a previous post.

The Secretary lady who we had lunch with was so sweet and nice and it almost hurts me to say this but SHE IS A SPITTER. OMG. I mean she can shoot things outta her mouth that put the girl from the exorcist to SHAME. She was spitting even before we went to lunch. and NO I don't mean the leaning over and shooting a good ole loogie into the street...i mean....she says a simple 'Hello' and we have water works going everywhere. It got even worse when we started eating...I tried to be slick and cover my drink with my hand whenever she talked. I would have placed a napkin over my food too if it wouldn't have been so obvious! O boy....and I KNOW the law clerk noticed too. Most of the time it was just spit but then once we started eating....who knows what was flying outta her mouth. I tell ya...it was hard to eat....watching the food go up and down in her mouth...then watching it turn into mush before she swallowed it. It took everything inside of me not to tell this woman (who is 30 years older than me) to SHUT her mouth while chewing...AND to make sure all of the remaining particles are out of her mouth before she begins to speak again.

YUCK. Call me a snob if u want. I don't mind this time. LOL

Giving Thanks

This week has been kinda chill but its given me a chance to reflect on my life and the adventure that is senior year that I am getting ready to embark on. I can't believe I'm about to be a senior...its scary and exciting all at teh same time. I'ma actually moving back on campus after two years of being off campus. That should be verrry interesting. I'm 21 now so I can actually GET IN to places that usually laugh at me for trying to enter.
I've been thinking lately about something my congressman shared with me at lucnh one day; he told me that life is a circle that consists of three parts: Before the storm, going through the storm, and after the storm. There have never been truer words. It started me reflecting on all of the storms I have been in and made it throuhg just since I've been in college and even before that. I smile everytime I think about how scared or nervous I was during a storm and how relieved and blessed I felt when each one of the storms I was in ENDED. Because all of them do. The storms never last forever and thats a lesson that I plan on taking with me always.
My mom has Multiple Sclerosis and it causes her to sometimes have trouble with her balance and can cause her body to just...hurt. Last week she went to Johns Hopkins for a routine, monthly appointment and they ended up admitting her. Now I can't count how many night my mom has spent in the hospital since I was 10. It's not something that shocks me anymore...I don't know if that's good or bad. The awful thing is when i'm at school in Atlanta and I hear from someone a couple days later that she is in the hospital...i feel helpless and useless. ANYWAYS...last week my mom was admitted and I went to go see her after work. We had a great convo, although it kept being interruted by nurses and technichians who needed to take blood or do tests. I enjoyed my time sitting and talking to her...and it makes realize how little we talk when we're actually in the house together.
Well she's out now and back home. She's doing much better and she's even well enough to drive. I used to be embarrased that my om sometimes walked with a cane and at one point had a wheel chair to get aroung. Now that I'm older I can't help but feel overwhelmed with thanks for how blessed I am. I can't believe how selfish I used to be and can still be.
All that so say...Its time for some changes. I need to be thankful for what I have and realize that I am BLESSED and have things and oppotunities that people can only WISH they had. Not to sound full of myself...I'm just being honest.
If I wanted to I could sit here and tell you all of the times that I have been discriminated against because of my skin color or my gender. The world is not always fair and I understand that. Its a very libertating feeling when u realize that the world will let you down but GOD never will. With that understanding I can move forward with the things I can control.

High School Never Ends

This weekend I was in the mall...spending the final pay check that I had received on Saturday. Minding my business and enjoying the feeling of not being broke, I ran into a girl I went to high school with. After a couple times of running into each other in H & M she asked me if I was going to a party of a guy we went to High School with (I could go into detail about the guy but that is neither here nor there for this story). I will say that he was a jock and still is one in College. Star basketball player with the Mansion for a house..equiped with a pool, waterfall and full basketball court. Anyways she told me I should come to the party because everyone from high school would be there. By everybody...we all know she meant...all the popular kids from high school would be there. I'm not gonna act like I wasn't popular..because I kinda was...but u get my point.
Long story short I show up at this house (My DREAM house...equipped with Full basketball court, waterfall and pool) and realize that I'm about to step into a time machine. I walk in (well not really cuz the part was outside. I see some people I recognize and immediatly attach myself to them. At these parties u look stupid just walking aroun by yourself. I begin conversation with the two youg women and I see that one of them is pregnant...expecting any day now lol. The other keeps referring to her son...and I'm sitting there confused for a second. Then As we walk around a little bit more and talk to other people we went to high school with they all reference their aparent children. One person found it necessary to justify her being at this party by yelling 'I AINT NOBODY MOTHER TONIGHT'...as if that wasn't bad enough it just kept happening...after a while I started to play a game in my mind to find a girl I went to high school with that didn't have any children and was not pregnant. It was hard to say the least.
The party was cool though. It was nice seeing everyone again...and seeing the faces of the people who couln't believe I would even be at the party. Since high scool I haven't really stayed in contact with anyone in particular. The guy whose party it was came over and said hi to me. If I was any girl-ier than I already am I might have giggled and blushed when he called me by name lol. I left after a while because everyone was drunk and as everyone knows...The Young Lady don't drink.

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IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?

The Sweet Escape

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

Take it Back

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Breathe, Stretch, Shake

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Through the wire

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?

Nothing without you

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Flashing Lights

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

DO it

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

Phone Sex (OMG LOL)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Lottery

WHAT IS 2+2?

Take you down

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Wonder Years Theme Song

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Victory

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

T-Shirt and my panties on (OMG again! lol)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Come with me

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

She's the one (OMG toooo much lolol)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Kitty Kat

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Sexi Can I

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Don't get lost in the crowd

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Got me waiting

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

I was made for you

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Through with you

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?

Because of you

Senior Moment?

I'm having a senior moment.

I had something I really wanted to share...but now i can't remember what in the world I was thinking about. Like my mind went blank and I forgot all together what I was thinking. Its kinda scary.

Man...Imma think twice before I laugh at old people.

Ok that is all.

JOINING THE BAND-WAGON OF RANDOM_NESS

10 Random things about me

1. I Love Everything Dawson's Creek...since i was 10...till today.
2. I am in LOVE with Zac Efron (High School Musical 3 is coming soon!)
3. Between myself and best friend I have all of the Dawson's Creek Season DVDs and currently collecting FREINDS (my second fav show)
4. I have no feeling in the left side of my tongue. (Freak Novacaine accident)
5. I had my ears pierced when I was 3 months old.
6. I refuse to join a sorority...for no other reason than to rebel against my roots...and surprise the HECK outta my fam.
7. My mom is a Preacher...so yea im a PK.
8. My little sister and I are 8 years apart...and aparently we look like twins..kinda wierd.
9. I was stung by a bee 10 years ago and the bee sting is still in my arm...if u touch it you can feel it..lol
10. I wasn't allowed to read Harry Potter Books as a child...and still choose not...


9 ways to win my heart

1. Believe in Jesus Christ...John 3:16. Basically be on the same level as me in the Faith department.
2. LOVE Dawson's Creek and be able to watch all the episodes with me..haha
3. Pay attention to the little things I say and do
4. Be adventurous
5. Cook for me
6. Be flexible
7. Be 'on my level'...I don't want to be the one always motivating you to be all that you can be. I need you to be someone for me to look to for an example sometimes.
8. Because I AM human...I have to be attrated to you
9. Like to CUDDLE!

8 things I wanna do before I die...

1. Please God
2. Understand and fulfill my purpose in life
3. Get Married ;-)
4. Have Children, grandchildren and greatgrandchildren
5. Visit every continent
6. Live in another country for a while
7. Become a Philanthropist
8. Discover something that no one ever has

7 ways to annoy me..

1. Chew with you mouth open
2. Break Promises or agreements
3. Crunch Ice, Slush Snow Balls, intentionally crrruuunnnccchhhh while u walk in the snow
4. Insult someone I love or care about
5. Talk about me negatively behind
6. Be SLOW....not naturally but by choice
7. Be Shallow...and KILL substantive conversations.

6 Things I believe in..

1. Jesus Christ
2. Tooth Brushes as well as tooth paste (mothwash doesn't hurt either)
3. Family
4. Friends
5. Myself
6. TRUE LOVE

5 things I'm afraid of..

1. Going to HELL
2. Dis pleasing God
3. The Big Mouse at Chuck-E Cheese
4. My Teeth Falling out
5. Not being happy


4 of my favorite things

1. To DO: RANDOMNESS...my fav random thing is to go on RANDOM drives with bymyself or a really fun person with the music blarring and the windows down with my hair out and sunglasses on.
2. Song: Always be my baby-Mariah Carey (lol since i was like 9)
3. FOOD: ALICE SPRINGS CHICKEN from OUTBACK with the House Salad, Honey Mustard Dressing and a Loaded baked potato with a Sweetened Iced Tea.. and of coarse the Blooming Onion as an Apetizer
4. Staying up all night watchin Dawson's Creek with my Best Friend

3 things I do everyday

1. Wash myself
2. Thank God
3. EAT

2 Things I want to do right now

1. Go out to eat with my friends (I like to eat)
2. Go buy some shoes!

1 Person I want to see.

1. Take a guess..lol

WHILE I WAS FEARING IT, IT CAME

This summer I have been recking my brain trying to remember a very dear poem to me. This was my favorite poem in High School and I could't remember it for anything recently. Well this morning one of the line just came to me and as soon as I got to work I typed that chopped up line into google and sure enough the poem came up.

Please read it and let me know what you think. A lot of us are motivatd by fear...and that motivation usually leads to inacation or action that is not reasonable. This poem hits home for me in my personal struggles growing into a woman and getting over fear. For so long I let the things that scared me or the things that intimidated me dictate what I went after and what I aspired to be and what my ambitions looked like. I was a coward and I KNOW God did not give me a Spirit of fear!

Emily Dickinson: "While I was Fearing it, it Came"

WHILE I was fearing it, it came,
But came with less of fear,
Because that fearing it so long
Had almost made it dear.
There is a fitting a dismay,
A fitting a despair.
’T is harder knowing it is due,
Than knowing it is here.
The trying on the utmost,
The morning it is new,
Is terribler than wearing it
A whole existence through.

THAT WAS DEFINITLY NOT MICKEY MOUSE

Ok so granted this court house is over 100 years old and it could be a lot worse..but I just saw a mouse. OMG. Did I scream? HECK YEA. Did I run? HECK NO. I stood up in my swivle chair (almost busted my behind) and proceeded to lean down grab my stuff off the floor (checking for mice inside of my bag) and yelling for the secretary to come help. Well she was no help...she ***OMG I JUST SAW IT AGAIN!!!***
ok where was I? O boy... o yea...so she was no help. The the Clerk who works in this room with me screamed when she came in and for (what felt like) 10 whole seconds we were reduced to 3 bumbling screaming gily IDIOTS. I am literally paralized into this chair. My feet are kicked up on the computer tower and I'm trying my hardest to concentrate on "whatever you like" by T.I. that I just added to my myspace page. Ok so now the clerk left again (she claimed she needed to run to the bank..but i know she just wanted to run from the mouse which at this moment I know is camped out behind HER desk cuz iiiiiii JUST SAW IT RUN OVER THERE!!!...EWWWW) and so now I'm stuck in here by myself!...

Well I'll share with you what I'm watching to distract me from thinking about Mickey's cousin....

LUNCH TIME

Its finally lunch time YAY. lol. I'm just happy to get out of this office. I am litertally the only one in here...the Judge is out of town...so that means no one is trynna really be in here either. O wait EXCEPT for the dumb intern lol...that would be me.

But leave it to me to try to be extra and be here when the Judge isn't. O well. Like I said...Its lunch time and I'm about to be out. Just thought I would let you know...

A FAN OF THE TIMES

I AM ABSOLUTELTY LOVING THIS. ALL OF IT. To see a Black Man...intelligent...respected...handsom...family man...it warms my heart and makes me love being black even more than I already did. I am so proud of him and all of his accomplishments. I interned for Hillary and a lot of HATERS try and act like that means I can't like Barack. Well they can go kick rocks. I love OBAMA and am excited that he is where he is. The country needed him to step up...to expose the good and the bad when it comes to race relations in the U.S. among other very important issues.

I feel this weird sense of 'history is being made..so pay attention' creeping up on me. Think about what we are living through as a people. Barack Obama represents more than just the First Formitable Black Democratic Nominee for President. He represents the dreams and hopes of a people who for OVER 400 years....IN THIS COUNTRY...ON THIS SOIL....suffered and endured being an oppressed people. He represents the dreams and hopes of ANYONE who has ever worked and strived toward ambitious dreams that were for so long considered by the world to be TOO ambitious and out of reach in 'these times'.

We should all be so brave as to answer our call to greatness! I am excited. I will cry if he wins and cry if he loses. Its that deep to me.

40 years from now I will be excited to tell anyone I know that I was apart of this great movement. My grandchildren will ask me if 'I was there when....' and I will smile and say 'I sure was'

Yuck!

Ok this is a continuation of the 'Am I OCD?' post.

Things that annoy me..cont.

6) White Cars. I know that sounds pretty general...but I seriously don't see a need for them. Unless its a BMW...i'll make a lltypes of exceptions for BMWs lol. But that's neither here nor there. Where was I? O yes...white cars. They get dirty very fast and so unless your gonna wash your car every single day...im figuring u need to just get a car with some color on it. (Ok so that ranks like a 8.5 on the snob-o-meter)lol

7)Stupid people, which does not include the ignorant or the people who just don't know no better. I'm talking about people who are SMART...but stupid. Like the people who have all types of knowlege...education...degrees...opportunities...but they just dumb as a door knob. Take it how u want it. Ihey just annoy me.

8) People who make promises they don't keep. I hold u to your word. And I try to give the same in return. That happens to be one of my biggest flaws. I count on people to much and take people for their word. That needs to stop.

I'm at work...bored...nothing to do...ready for lunch. Help...

NEVER TOO OLD FOR THE TRUTH

I know Miley Cyrus is like 6 years younger than me...but who cares. She hit it on the nose with this one. So...before I go to sleep I wanted to share my new favorite video.

ILLUSIONS OF GRANDEUR

To the 5 who may not know it... this is for u.
It just hit me like a ton of bricks.
Just like when I was 7 and I realized there was no tooth fairy.
Or like when I was 9 and finally gave up on Santa.
Maybe it was more like when I was 6 and the Wizard of OZ was suddenly just a guy behind the curtain.
It just hit me. Like a ton of bricks. Just. Like. That.
If I say I wasn't expecting to learn what I've learned this summer, I would be making an understatement that could only be outdone by my imagination.
YOU let me down. But did you really? Was it an inevitable fall from grace? An in escapable reality that would be unreasonable to deny.
I thought. No, scratch that. I KNEW I could count on my unrealistic expectaions of your super hero persona.
It was only a matter of time I suppose. No one is perfect they say. After all, you never asked me to think the world of you. No, I did that on my own.
1)Maybe it happned when I walked into that office.
2)But I'm pretty sure it's when I walked through the gate.
3)Nope, it was the second time I called that phone.
4)It had to be the first time I saw YOU cry.
5)But it was really when YOU told me.
Are you still wondering how Ms. J, Ms. Prestegious Black Woman College, Ms. I'm going to Law School, Ms. I have a boyfriend that goes to that Prestegious Black Men College, Ms. I've had 4 internships in the last 2 years, Ms. People think I have it together but that's because they don't know me at all, could be so decieved?
Here is a secret about me that I BET only 3 people in this whole world know: I am obssesive compulsively concerned with things that NO one else on earth would possibly think to give a second thought to.
Why? Easy. I care too much. Plain and simple. Not 'too much' like normal people haha. I care too much like...forreal.
All of this to say what?
It hit me like a ton of bricks. Just. Like. That.
You see, it's not your fault because your only human. YOU can't help it. Just like I can't help the fact that they think I am someone I'm not. You see, just like I held un realistic expectations for you; that is the same way people approach me. I am seen as something that I am not. If they really knew me....they would be let down too. Shoot, I let myself down all the time.
So the next time you feel bad because you think you let me down. Don't. Just keep doing what you do.
1) Even when I left that office, your voice rang through my ears. I could't believe I had been deceived. But I really wasn't. Its how the game works.
2) That gate locked me in and when it set me free you were there. YOU let me down. But you really didn't. It was supposed to happen.
3) Just let it ring. With each ring my heart sank. With each word my ears stopped listening. Here we go again. But we bounce back.
4)The first tear scared me. I thought you were weak. I knew I was wrong for feeling that way but I was too young to know bette. It wasn't your fault. You didn't let me down. You are human, as am I.
5)One day Super Man became human. One day I knew why it hadn't happened. It became clear. If I knew 'it'...I wouldn't like you as a person? You say that... but I still disagree. You know I always will.
What did I realize? What hit me like a ton of bricks?
Something basic and true. I'm human and I will mke mistakes. Peope will let me down. I must forgive them. Forgiveness comes from knowing people mess up and moving on from it. I love it. So I'm going to forgive all of you. I hope you will forgive me to.

I'm grown. Now what?

I have so many thoughts inside of me and its very overwhelming to try and blurt them out all at once. But I'm using this blog as a tool to vent and nag....basically say things that my friends would look at me sideways if I tried to ramble on about.

I intern for a Judge here in Baltimore; however, for most of the summer I was an intern for my Congressman on the 'Hill' in DC. I want to be an attorney one day but I have no clue what I want to actually do with the Law Degree. When I look at my future I can see a lot of things but the career side of it hasn't seem to come into focus yet. I'm about to start applying to Law Schools in a month or two...shouldn't I know what in the world I'm going to law school for??? Yea, I know...a lot of people don't decide what type of law they want to go into until their 3rd year of Law school...but I'm tired of telling people...I just like the law. Its a dumb answer and I sound dumb saying it.

*Side Note: u know those questions/comments that you say but as they are leaving your lips you regret the second you evern opened your mouth? I do that a lot. People say think before you speak...and while I do that most of the time....its impossible to be 100%. I mean people already say I think too much....im just stuck between a brick and a ....hard place. But I digress...

So this Law School thing is the plan. I wanna go straight after college. I took the lsat already but If Imma get a scholarship (which i would need to attend law school) I need to get a higher score. Hence the reason I'm taking the lsat again in the fall.

I'm in love with someone and we have a wonderful friendship but like all things in life there are good times and bad times. He is someone who I relate to and connect with in a way that I have not with anyone else. He's my favorite person, best friend and confidant. People are always saying how perfect we are for each other and how we compliment each others personalities. BUT Right now were working through some of our issues...the main one is taking each other for granted. We got too comfortable and forgot the best thing about out relationship which was the fact that we were in it (the relationship) because we wanted to...not because we had to. So...this summer we took a 'break' and decided to give each other space. The physical space wasn't very hard considering he was in NY doing an internship and I was in D.C. The emotional space was the hard part. I wanted to call and say hi and tell him everything that happened in my day but I couldn't. He reminded me that he loved me everynow and then and called to check on me and see how I was doing...but that was it. I feel like I hung and spoke with his mom more than I talked to him...but i survived it.

I even tried to place my attention on other guys who were in my internship program...but that only led me to my original conclusion....best friend is the only guy i want. No one else compares (Ok now I sound like a cheesy love song). We are getting better though. He took me on a nice outing for my bday...as i described to you in my first post. It was great and I think we rediscovered some things that we had forgotten about. We still have a long way to go but I know we will get it together soon. Lately we've been talking about how we don't want to get back to the way we were...we want to be better than before.

I'm optimistic for my future...professionally and personally. I'll keep you updated... ;-)

Do I have OCD?

Ok roll with me on this one. The other day best friend said I was being OCD...well he says that all the time....ok, a lot of people say that all the time. haha. Ok so on with my point.

Things that I hate:

1) Indoor pools. I believe if pools were meant to be inside...God would not have made lakes and oceans outdoors. OK that wasn't the best reasoning. I just don't like them...they get sticky and must and start smelling like chlorine and pee. I prefer outdoor pools...like God intended. lol

2) White girls wearing jeans with no pockets on the behind. Ok so sue me. Not that I make a habit of looking at their butts...it just is soo obvious. It looks low class (Ok snob remark...#1). If I could I would make a law....U must wear jeans with pockets on the "butt" lol.

3)The Good Ole Boys who call Condoleeza Rice out of her name by referring to her as "Condi". Its one of the most ddisrespectful things I've ever heard. U never heard anyone calling Madeline Albright...MADYY! ...Give me a break.

4) I hate the sound of snow....crrruuunnnccchhing. YIKES...it makes my teeth grind. Its kinda like the feeling most people get when nails are scraped against a chalk board.

5) I hate people who eat with their mouths open. YUCK. Its just plain nasty. Get some class. (Snob remark...#2)

The Virgin Blogger

This is my first time doing this so if you would bare with me I'd greatly appreciate it. I can guarantee there will be gramatical errors and mis spellings gallor. BUT I need for you to do me a favor...just let me know I'm not alone in this. I have GREAT faith in God. However....like many people... I sometimes feel like nobody understands what is going on in my head. Some stuff I want to keep to myself and some stuff I just want to YELL outloud. The latter is what I will be sharing with you all. That stuff that I just HAVE to tell someone....yep thats what Imma write. My friend....hmmm I'll call him King Blog....he's like this great blogger and he told me that this blogging this is theraputic...so lets see if he's right.

First I'll tell you a little about myself. I'm 21 years old...that's a new development. I turned 21 last week and u wanna know what I did? I hung out with Best Friend. We hung out at the harbor in the morning...went to one of my favorite places to eat calle Fogo De Chao (u should try it) and then went to a wonderful museum. We took the water taxi over to another part of the city and went to Maggie Moos....best ice cream in the world. I got a smoothie- Raspberry and Pomagranate. After our outing I had a family get together at my house where friends and fmaily came to celebrate my bday. I had an Ice Cream cake...hamburgers...hot dogs...soda. Needless to say I didn't spend my birthday like other 21 year olds. I did my own thing. Thats basically a good introduction of myself for you. I try not to walk with the crowd. TRY is the opporative word.

When I'm not away at school I live with both parents (they've been married for 23 years) and I'm the oldest of two. I have a youger sister who just became a teenager...yes she's 13. My family is big. Each side is big and they all keep in touch. If you tell one person something...everyone will know by the end of the day. That's just how it is.

I'm known as being nice and VERY diplomatic. In fact my life is a somewhat twisted melody. I'm the big sister in the book or in the movie that does everything right...(its a fascade...trust me). People seem to think I have it all together. I attend a prestegious HBCU, I get good grades, I am Pretty (am I conceited for saying that?)...anyways I have had 4 very cool internships in the last 2 years. There are other things I could include but I make myself gag bragging. AHHH I hate it. The fact that people look at my problems and trivialize them because...I seem like I have it all together. Truthfully...I probably don't have any Real problems but HEY... they're mine...so shut your trap.

I sound awkward cursing...so don't expect you'll hear much of that. I carry myself in a way that no one can ever call me anything other than a Lady. I'm sorta conservative....but I am a DEM! O yea BARACK OBAMA all the WAY! I respect my body...but I'll be honest in saying that I haven't always been smart about that one.

SUPER FLAW: I have a super snob within who tries to come out evernow and then but I surprise myself at how well I keep it in. I have this painfully anal way of trying to make everything perfect...whether its tangible or just in my mind. My mom says I consume too much caffeine...and that's why I'm so scatter brained and OCD. Well I think...she's right. Haha. Let's see how this blogging thing goes.